...patience is truly a virtue... (one)

>>>i've been wanting to start my blog after sept. 23rd but i was hesitant to do so. either this will yield good results or might plunge me back again to deep depression, or should i say, trouble.. it has been more than 3 months since my being a fan of libera has died down - after that squabble with the fanatics, i pondered & decided to lie low on libera matters for a while. my posts were empty, i did games to my heart's content. i set aside my libera CD and welcomed back andrea bocelli in the car (with a smirk on his face, i suppose). i wasn't the real me, something was missing - i miss those little voices hitting the high notes. i miss the white robes, i miss the DVD, i miss tom cully's "ave virgo"...i miss libera!

>>>so one morning i played "eternal". i almost choked listening to cully, horncastle, connery, madine so i said to myself i can't run from this group! they're hounding me with their voices! then later, i played leiden and there's the familiar "hello, i'm josh & we're called libera......" i was starting to become whole again. i told bocelli "sorry, andrea, you have to rest again, libera's back" (and i imagined the smirk on bocelli's face again, hi hi hi)..

>>>my third "angel" (let's call her the canadian angel), appeared in myspace. she sent me messages which i replied back. we were both thomas cully fans. we shared the same passion for libera music but tom c. was always on our top list. eventually, she showed up on my FB since i wasn't a regular myspace user. we hit it off rightaway. and now she's not just an angel, she has become a friend.

>>>in the course of our conversations, she offered me to check on 'the heart of libera' if i could request him to add me. i told her it has been depressing from way back since i was already blocked by this boy. and i've learned my lesson the hard way. i've been through hell & back trying to associate with heart of libera and all yielded negative results - i was blocked and even banned from a site where i found him. i cried buckets and ate dust & dirt - all because of this boy.

>>>with much prodding (and prayers from my end), the 23rd of sept. was a memorable date. canadian angel flooded my wall with messages that sent me to high heavens - heart of libera is now my friend on FB!!! i couldn't believe my eyes when i went to his page, his wall - it was him talking! it's the real him. the heart of libera was just a screen away from me, rather a click away from me. my husband shared with my happiness. he saw me during the dark times when he'd ask how was i doing with my libera friends and i would just reply with a dry "fine". and he noticed too the sudden change of CD in the car - bocelli was screaming his lungs out when it used to be libera, libera playing from the house to the mall.

>>>now i'm being myself again. and thanks to my canadian angel who shared her idol with me. she knew i was a fan. she knew the pain i went through and she understood how much i missed my idol. thank you, EK. just like my old friends at st. philips circle, i will value our friendship, all because of one music and one boy - thomas aaron cully...

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i said "3rd" angel because my 1st angel is jon de castro - libera360 administrator/creator. jon has always understood my points of view and opinions no matter how hot & feisty i was at the 360 SB. he is now a friend on FB including mom, milagros and sister, koji.

my 2nd angel is joel andaya. joel was the main man's (roberto de ocampo) contact during libera's concert here last april. he worked so hard to sell tickets from fans from luzon, visayas and maybe mindanao to fill the seats of the RCBC auditorium. he met up with all of us to personally give our tickets (at one point even paying for them with his own money from his pocket). he gave my family good seats where he assured me i could clearly see josh's moles and hear stefan scream. i did, and it was the best times of my life!

and now my 3rd angel from canada, who unselfishly shared TAC with me.

>>>my thanks to these 3 wonderful "angels" which made me love libera more..